Date: 2008-04-15 09:31 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Location: my bed Mood: geeky

so im feeling like a proper student today - im not in uni till 11. Its great. Im doing some prescribing module which is pretty much just an hour a day of work and means i have tonnes of time to do all my other work. ive been frequenting the new library at dundee uni alot - but i think today i will just stay in and drink tea. If i go to the library i just sit and drink coffee in the cafe and Im concerned about my coffee intake. 

This morning i woke up nice and early to do my drug calculations which are part of this module but its on some rubbish computer programme online and ive got stuck on one so it wont let me go forward and answer the rest of them until i answer this one. man im so annoyed- means i have to go aks other folk the answer. It got  to the stage that I was just putting in random number like 1.78ml, 2.87ml - i just didnt know what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

update on cleanliness champion -  i am one now. 

exams are pending so my friend john forbes is heading round to help design a fast track to medical sucess study timetable. figured we got this far we should maybe make sure we graduate. Im just not feeling the stress- I have all these rubbish reflective essays on the medical school learning outcomes to write and it is honestly the most mind-numbing stuff. A page of decision making, a page on appropriate attitudes and legal responsibilities.............................anywasy ive don 7 of the 12 so im more than halfway. 

man i cant believe how much of a geek i sound. promise when/if im a doctor i will have better stories to tell. probably not tho!

Date: 2008-03-22 18:10 Subject: Cleanliness Champion Security: Public Mood: accomplished

So i am almost a cleanliness champion! How exciting is that? Its like the worst superhero ever. Ive had to do this stupid, rubbish cleanliness champion online programme all year and im done! I just need to get my supervisor to sign me off. then i get a wee "c c" thing on my name badge.  Ask me anything about how to dispose of clinical waste - im an expert.

Tonight is the engagement party of laura- my friend who I lived with in first and second year. Its at dundee ice rink - but not on ice or anything - like the function room. Its gonna be a bit random and im not in a total party mood. I bought new make-up tho so im quite excited about that. 
Eve has gone to the rentals caravan in crail. Yeah considering we are meant to have mega snow tonight I dunno why the fuck she wanted to go and get all cold. BUT hey!

I never realised that defrosting a freezer was so easy btw. I have been duck-taping my freezer for months now because the ice is making it really difficult to shut but yeah on thursday it was just a disaster cos the ice got so bad and it just opened right up. Defrosted my food a bit - there was just some chiken and ice cream in there. So i was like "fuck this " go for it. So i got big bowls of boiling water and ok it was a bit rubbish using like 20 towels to mop water up. But i did it. Now no duck tape is needed.

Date: 2008-03-18 20:52 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Location: my bed in my room Mood: relaxed Music: jimmy eat world - big casino

Think im gonna start writing this thing again. Its only been about 700 days since my last entry but purely because i hate being all creepy and looking at tweedie and nikis entries. Who knows i may even get more lj friends. 

Aye so life in the hutchison flat is quiet tonight. eve has bombed off to watch hot shots at her abertay uni cinema club (last week was top gun?!?) and i am simply putting off the prospect of work until most haunted comes on at ten. I will sit and watch it hoping eve comes home before i have to go to sleep because i creep myself out so much - BUT ITS SO GOOD!

I just ranked my rotations for my first year of jobs:

1 medicine - surgery - acute care
2 surgery - acute care - medicine
3 acute care - medicine - surgery
4 surgery - anaesthetics - medicine
5 medicine - surgery - anaesthetics 
6 anasthetics - medicine - surgery

each block lasts 4 months. you get the general idea but life as a foundation year 1 doctor may be a tad rubbish i feel. but considering im doing my shadowing now and its totally busy and scary- getting paid to be busy and scared will be a huge insentive. i felt that going for medicine first was a good idea. you dont have to start till 9 (surgery is 8) and i know what im doing a bit more than acute care. thats my logic anyways. but its all gonna be about the same really - same blood, same jobs, same getting shouted at! 
i really should go do some work. but i have enjoyed this ten minute break to talk rubbish - i feel bad that i totally sold out to myspace, then bebo, then facebook. sorry mr lj.

Date: 2005-06-17 13:59 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

someone please employ me or im going to cry

Date: 2005-04-11 21:40 Subject: woooooooooo Security: Public Mood: ditzy

apart from exams and revision and crap, life is peachy....

*me and john and adam are gonna come to triches to see all you crazy people on wednesday. and celebrate the life of trich. *eeeeeek* im very excited.
*and me and john have booked into an amazing hotel for our amsterdam holiday in september YOU HAVE TO CHECK THE SITE.... www.greenhouse-effect.nl. we want to stay in the "canal view" or "tropical dream" room.

YAY

Date: 2005-01-20 11:45 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: happy Music: the used - i caught fire (in your eyes)

DONT go to ann summers nights when your boyfriend is going to a stag night. the whole thing just gets very messy and everyone falls out with everyone else and there are tears and lies and accusations and strippers and more tears and angry text messages and fluffy snow that gets ignored because there are so many tears.

and thats all im going to say about that. that was monday.

so tuesday....i got up and was like booo uni. walked of in my heels to get the bus and fell on the ice (which im sure was snow the night before) what a joke. i was totally embarresed. i always fall tho. uni was rubbish i needed sleep.

wednesday....that was yesterday. i studied and went to uni and studied and then i watched desperate housewives which is SO ACE. im loving it.

today is thursday. wards then computers then lectures then going off to a remote part of dundee to visit a patient and his wife at his home. should be good.

im very jelous of all you kids going to the used because it is my album of choice at the moment. <3

<3
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Now
<3

Date: 2005-01-06 18:51 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: good Music: the used - let it bleed

i feel so minging cos im sitting here eating a tub of cafe la ronda colslaw that i bought on the way home from the dentist today....i cant help it. its the best colslaw EVER and i love it. apart from the four in one that i may eat tonight this is gonna be the last thing that remotly reminds me of linlithgow i can eat till i return to the 'gow. how odd does that sound???

anyways im going back to dundee tommorrow, i cant say im too happy about this because xmas has just gone too fast and there has not been enough days off. oh well - im just gonna have to get used to the idea.

i have to start packing tonight which is never fun. think eve is going over to lauras...so it mite just be on my own :-( i just annoy her anyway....I just talk crap like blah blah blah. and she just looks at me like - "im i related to this spastic..." its funny tho. <3

oh well gotta go hide this colslaw from me.

much love to tweedie....driving is scary anyways.

Date: 2005-01-03 16:11 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: good Music: funeral for a friend - this year's most open heartbreak

yo kids. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

i havent exactly updated of late, at all. which is rubbish because i still read everyone elses entries, start writing my own, and then think, why would someone want to know this?? so i go do something else...but it has got to the point where its do this or do work...never good.

Ive had a totally chilled out time doing not very much. Christmas day was a family type thing, going to visit my gdad at the home, coming home and eating loads with my gran and other gdad. Days in and around xmas and new year have been filled with long lies, trying to play san andreas, a bit of shopping, eating chocolate and seeing friends that i dont see very much...Tweedie (<3)  n robb and gav and stuff. still not seen much o niki and trich tho :-/

hogmany was ace...i wasnt really sure what was gonna happen until people started to show up at johns. kev, steve and their london/american emo dude friends, they were weird like....not really sure what was going on there. picked up gav, robbie, ect and they came along, katy and andy were there as was martin. it was cool but i got too drunk and slept most of the nite after about 3 i think. new years day was all family stuff again, and more food. then i went to johns and helped clean up the mess. i hoovered, there was no way i was cleaning up chunder....btw the chunder wasnt mine, GAVIN.

and...last nite me gav tweedie n robb went to see house of flying daggers but i got a bit confused. but it was a very pretty film that made me smile :-)

Today has been my least busy yet and i actually did some work this morning,  wasnt loving it like..... I came down stairs and the new minister was in my house (he lives next door) was like "awrite!!" and then i watched zulu which was the scariest film to me when i was a kid, i dont really know why...random

Think john is coming down to see me tonite so YAY, lol i didnt see him last night OH MY GOD! (jking)

 its shit tho, i will be back at uni this time next week....boooooo!!!!!!

Date: 2004-12-16 10:31 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

thing to be very very happy about:

- 2 days till uni is over....cannot wait
- XMAS BALL 2night and im gonna get ready at beccas...be all girly and stuff
- going HOME on monday...with my john and its gonna be great.
- christmas in general being very close....eeek
- TWEEDIES bday bash and her bday meal which im very excited about...:-)
- being with my family and watching digital tv
-

things to be well sad about:

- a certain band are playing a certain gig that i can certainly not go to and thats all im gonna say about that... *kicks wall*
- i have to work friday,saturday and sunday...but money is goooood i guess
- its not very christmasy weather..."where is the snow?????"
- i have to study at christmas and try and understand lots of things that blatently dont make sense. oh wellllll....
- xmas shopping is not really done yet...my bad.

oh well so here is a picture of my tutor group taken way back at the beginning of the semester

Date: 2004-12-08 10:27 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: tra lalalala - ditzy

11 random comments about 10 random people, and only I know who I’m on about:
-i miss her all the time. she is my <3 and we are the same.

-he is the most amazing person ever. i want to be with him everywhere. he makes me laugh so much. and when hes not there its just rubbish...

-she is my best friend. i dont see her enough but im so glad we are just the same as before. she will be my bridesmaid. (when and if i get married lol)

-this boy is often too complex for me to understand. hes too clever aswell. but hes a best friend. - just dont analyse me cos i know im rubbish

-i really realised alot about life after she went away. hope she knows how much i cared and that shes looking after me now. she always bought me loadsa chocolate and coke even tho my mum was worried bout my teeth.

-he is the coolest old person i know. he makes me laugh so much and i genuinly like spending time with him. although he worries alot.

-hes a crazy motherfucker

-he's been my friend for years and hes always cracked me up so much. i just wish i saw him more.

-she comes out with some of the most random cack. but shes so sweet. and i really like bitching with her.

-he scares me but im used to it so i just yell back and it gets me in trouble.

-if i need her she will drive up and hug me

just figured id fill this thing in because im bored and i dunno...i have to go to a lecture soon tho so goody...

biffy was ace <3 but alas, they DID NOT play only one word comes to mind (come on...its the new single) oh well. it was so much fun and simon has cut his hair and he was looking very nice. :-)

favourite song: The Kids from Kibble and the Fist of Light

Say nothings better.
You say nothings better
Say nothings better than the rest.
Say hope you're better than the rest 'cause you talk a good game.

Your sensations are suffering.
I'll make your sensations suffer.
Through these long sadistic highs,
And you see the way I collide with you.

I hope you see straight.
Tonight I'm in a rage.
Tonight I'm in a rage.

Date: 2004-12-07 13:26 Subject: No sense makes sense to me at all Security: Public Mood: christmasy

i am very excited cause im going to see ^biffy^ tonite .....again and i love them soooo much. but today is stressful and stuff. i was meant to be doing medsin stuff but i couldnt really be bothered so i have decided to leave it today and do it l8r in the week. hopefully eve and niki have now made contact and will get to dundee at the same time, making my life alot easier when trying to meet up with them both.

my boy is back in dundee and im so glad because i have missed him sooooo much. its a total shame though because he has lost weight and cant really eat much. which is not like john. he bought me flowers the other day to say thnks for coming to visit him and stuff <3  however he refuses to come and see biffy with me tonight as  he doesnt like them and even if he did he "wont be able to jump around" .... whatever.

so as we are being geeks and going to the medic ball... which is so NOT us. i have no dress to wear, john has bought a 2nd hand suit (which does look very nice) but he thinks hes gonna wear these velcro trainers. hes not. need to convince him outta that. but yeah tommorow we are going shopping for presents, for dresses and new shoes.... :-/ eeek.

gemma and laura have had an exam today so i hope it all went ok. blesss. i feel like a jammy bitch not revising and stuff. oh well....we shall seee what it will be like when its my turn to study..... scary fucking thought....

found out last night that my mum and dad are having  a huge war with some other couple at the golf club who are cunts. basically my parents rock and my dad is a scary motherfucker when he gets started. i would not even put up a fight. cant wait to get up to the golf club at xmas and watch the action unfold.

and btw i got an advent calender. it was beleted but i got one. my mum sent it up *thankyou mummy*

<3 cannot wait to hear "only one word comes to mind" live tonight <3

Date: 2004-12-02 10:21 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: awrite

ok so the coldest day of the year i decide to wear a skirt. meahh!!!!!!! its all tweed and stuff. i look like a total oxford reject. which i am not!! anyways when i got in into uni i was walking up the stairs and one of my shoes fell off. nice one. i was tres emabarresed but i just didnt look at anyone around me. look!! im just not used to this whole skirt and shoes that are not trainers kinda deal. it just aint me. but im trying so hard to look like a reeeal doctor/medic/tard.

oh welllll. i do like mnew shoes <3 even tho they are a bit big.

man my gran got taken into hospital last night with *ahem* severe unstable angina and a possible myocardial infarction. go me!! lol.. its all a bit shit cause my grandad just got put in a nursing home and now shes able to chill out. hope its all good and she just gets some new medication. *love you granny* she is so cooool!!

hopefully our tutor group are having a get together tonite. last one was quite a drunken night...hopefully will be less of that cos i have a 9am start tommmrow. should be cool tho. think we are going to jackies bachelour pad. its a big new house. its gonnna be sweet.

and YAY... john gets back tommorow. i miss him so much. i wrote him a letter last night but hes not allowed to read it because its way to soppy and dumb. he will think im a spastic. was speaking to adam last night. turns out hes got some big giant rash all over him. becca thinks its an std. - its a likely expalnation i guesss.....

tra lalalalala.

im not in a very christmas mood yet. i dont know whats wrong with me but im putting it down to the fact i dont have an advent calender, i havent started my shopping yet AND its only the 2nd of december. im gonna go and start my shopping now. ebay ahoy....

Date: 2004-12-01 10:25 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

soooo....its halfway thru the week. im trying to get motivated and study- this should be easy seeing as john got out of hospital and has left dundee for a couple of days. hes in rehab at home lol. last night i tried to be good. i had the tv off and my books all out on my desk but then i went and ate a yoghurt and the tv went back on....boooo. i know im rubbish. seeing as today is a half day i should really be hanging around uni and studying.... we shall wait and see.

i have been given the job of organising the medsin xmas party so if its a fucking disaster, its my fault. hopefully it will be fine. its at my place of work so that should help and i will be able to get everything sorted but argh i dont know. but first i have to write to all the members and make sure somebody is gonna make tickets....i dont know :-/

not much else been going on.being at home was great and i didnt really want to come back here. i like dundee and usually linlithgow sucks immensly but i just miss my house and the people in there.

Date: 2004-11-25 09:53 Subject: damn!! Security: Public

i seem to be early for uni. whats wrong with me.

YAY home today!!!

Date: 2004-11-24 10:57 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

so happy im going home tommorow. but at the same time im all upset cos i have to leave john in the hospital and hes all "im bored" and i like to go visit him and make him smile. but then he will be out very soon so im looking at the big picture.

went for one pint last nite at the campletown with adam becks and doofus. was ok but then becks went and adam and doofus talked about rugby and i was all :-/ ...so i went home, read about clinical cardiovascualar examinations (:-?) and went to my bed. but then at 1am john woke me up with the sweetest text EVER. lol. - he couldnt sleep.

so today i got up and went to a non compulsary ECG video type thing - go me. and now im here. im quite awake. so im gonna go visit john and then go down the street and buy something else for the siblings bday. and also look at the dundee xmas lights <3... it does seem a bt early for lights tho.

i have no idea what to do now.
do i
a) sit here for 20 mins and waste time doing nothing.
b) go try find ppl i know and get a cup of tea.
c) there is no c.

i dont know....

Date: 2004-11-16 20:34 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: worried

man. hes so ill and skwirmy and we thought he was getting better but they took away his morphine and its back again. im leaving him to sleep just now. but i dont like this. i just want to hug him but that would hurt him. and he cant even drink so its not like i can buy him some bru. bleh.

im gonna go see him again.

Date: 2004-11-12 12:29 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: weird

to waste time before i go home and do work im going to do tweedies survey thing!!


1)Using bands / groups / solo artists, spell out your name.
- well im going to cheat :-)

courtneyLove
jimmyeatwOrld
biffyclyRo
brandNew
Avril Lavigne


2) Have you ever had a song written about you? i think eve said she wrote a song bout me once.
3) What song makes you cry? biffy clyro "acoustic diary of always" *tear*
4) What song makes you happy? biffy clyro only "one world comes to mind" "its alright to hide away - underneath the ocean"
5) HEIGHT: 5'4' i am quite a midjet
6) HAIR COLOR: blond with rapidly increasing brown roots -sigh
7) EYE COLOR: Blue.
8) PIERCINGS: im a bore. i have my ears peirced but im allergic to nickle so it gets all pus
7) TATTOOS:nope
8) WHAT YOU WEARING?: jeans a white shirt and black top over the top and my black jacket
9) WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: none. im in the ninewells i.t. suite
10) WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: ribena
11) WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: REALLY cold. but nice apart from that
12) HOW ARE YOU?: quite sleepy, glad its the weekend
13) GET MOTION SICKNESS? nope
14) HAVE A BAD HABIT?: yeah i bite my nails. i worry too much
15) GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: yeah. i hardly see them to fight with them. (miss them)
16) LIKE TO DRIVE?: YES. but lack of car doesnt help.
17) BOYFRIEND?:mmmhmmm. john is the bestest person ever.
18) GIRLFRIEND?: naw
19) CHILDREN?: <3 nope
20) HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE? haha yeah. it doesnt help that im a dork tho.
21) BEEN HURT?: i guess, but i dont care now.
22) YOUR GREATEST REGRET?: im not telling
23) YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW?: any guesses?? yeah ...biffy
24) IF YOU WERE A CRAYON WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? pink
25) WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY? sleeping and waking up with the sun shining in and being beside someone (hopefully john)
26) WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: i sadly want to buy britneys greatest hits.

Seven things in your [bed]room:
*my inflatable basket ball hoop
*a firepace thats all boarded up
*my pink duvet the same as tweedies
*my biffy wall
*my nice window with a rad view

Top seven things you say most:
*man
*aye
*totally
*yay
*grrr
*biffy
*cunt

Have you ever:
Been in love?: uh huh
Gone skinny dipping?: no
Had a medical emergency?: i broke my arm?does that count? its not as good as tweedies
Had surgery?: yeah. it hurt
Swam in the dark? yeah in portugal with my mum. it was scary
Been to a Bonfire?: yeah. poor hedgehogs die in those things!!
Got Drunk?: NEVER
Ran away from home?: nope
Played strip poker?: nope
Gotten beaten up?: no
Been on stage?: Yeah. mon the band
Slept outdoors?: Yeah. cold.
Pulled an all nighter?: yeah im so hardcore
Been on radio/tv?: i was on the radio when i was a kid talking bout mary queen of scots. i said like a lot.
Been in a mosh-pit?: aye its a bit shit

In the last 24 Hours have you....:
Cried: No
Bought something: my dinnder at witherspoons, some ribena and a go ahead bar. oh and my bus ticket
Gotten sick: i felt really full after tea...
Sang: Yes. im always singing along. even where theres no music
Been kissed: Yup
Felt stupid: probably. its me.
Talked to an ex: no
Missed someone: yes, my mum dad sister and many friends....:-(
Hugged someone: uh huh
Had sex: yes
Been told youre beautiful: no
Shoplifted: no

that was fun....


im going to go home. grrr i have to study now...

Date: 2004-11-09 13:40 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: yay

look what i just bought!!!!!!!

eek im so excited. but its from the U.S. so it will take decades to get here. but yay!!!

Date: 2004-11-09 10:26 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: rubbish

felt like i should update seeing as even niki gets round to it these days. i had quite a busy day yesterday. was in uni all day with many many lectures and stuff. got home and left again to go to "the killing fields" showing on campus. was good but i actually kinda fell asleep. i felt really bad becuase its a good film but i was super tired and stuff.

so then john was meant to meet me and stuff but because he is rubbish and was "ill" he wanted me to come round. so i did, just because.

argh. and i had to get up all early when it was still dark. for this nine o clock neoplasia thing which i so could have missed. i wish i stayed in bed....so warm. oh well. at least i have an hour and a half to spare. gonna go to the libary and do some work like a good girl.

i have netball tonite. if im awake, i may go. i probably will.

i feel so rubbish today. i just wanna curl up in a tiny ball and sleep. and i know i have to do work but the libary will be all cold.

:-(

Date: 2004-11-02 13:13 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Mood: rushed Music: jimmy eat world

man i know today is gonna be one of those grr days where i have too many things to do :-(.... i came in at 10 which was a good thing but all we did was play with inhalers ??? :-/

i had shitty lectures and then soon ive gotta head to clinical skills, ive done some work but i still know nothing. i have to go to a medsin meeting at my work today which is a tad random. so that should be cool. then bomb it to netball, because its fun. then see my john <3

i think i mite take tommorwo morning off. i have one 9-10 thing then thats it for the rest of the day = no point. mite aswell get up at a time i wont feel dead and start some work.

me and my sister had muchos fun. she came up for her dundee open day thing and we went to a random crappy metal nite w/ the boys and we ate lotsa crap. pretty much same as usualy but ohhh <3. love her.
hope she had fun.

you should see the canals are freezing
you should see me high
you should just be here
be with me here
it doesn't seem theres hope for me
i let you down
but i won't give in now
not for any amount

don't it feel like sunshine afterall
the world we love forever, gone
we're only just as happy
as everyone else seems to think we are